Hurting badly

Burning isn't a usual part of my IC, but with the weather its started to constantly burn and when I move the entire thing spasms. I makes me not want to stand. No research has been done on weather and IC, but it really needs to be done. A lot of ICers have extra problems during the cold months.

This would be the thing keeping me from getting a job. My normal pain can usually be ocontrolled, but despite taking valium, oxybutin, and soma it only help slightly. I need to move to the equator or something.. though my cousin said Los Angeles never gets cold or hot.. But like he said, cost of living there is insane.

So I remain tethered to my heating pad. My Grandmother's burial was today and thankfully I made it there during my 4 hour safe period. Look at a few of the grave, saw quite a bit of WWII vets who died in the 70s so they survived the war, but found one that died in '44... so.. he didn't live. There was one Vietnam one who died in the 60s, so I assume he didn't survive that war.. Saddest one was a family plot. Me and my nephew look confused at the graves, because all there was was a line of cement with markers over there. Said nephew assumed we were standing on the bodies when when I looked at their birth/death dates it turns out each one never lived past a year so their bodies fit under the grave markers.

Then I learned through looking at my grandmother's family plot that my pawpaw, her husband, had a first wife and an adopted son, both dead. The son died at 7 years old. mother said from Leukemia. Wife died a month after, mom said it was a blood clot during surgery. I don't understand how that man could keep going after losing his family within two months.