I'm not sure if the cyclosporine is working. I've had terrible pains since 6. I took everything I could constantly., had a small period of time where I was mostly pain free, but as soon as I urinated everything went to hell despite the massive amounts of muscle relaxers I took. It's these damn cold fronts. I'm positive the temperature must have dropped by 10 degrees at least, and I can say this without even going outside. This Soma needs to hurry up and knock me out. I might end up going the way of Michael Jackson, when you're in pain you don't give a shit.
This isn't like labor pain, or a very painful medical procedure because this pain is chronic. I could stay in this state for a day, or weeks. I think my doctor's given me everything she can. And even with all this high leveled, controlled substances it still feels like there's and angry cat in the bladder. It burns and it spasms.
Earlier today I only spasmed when I walked, so this lead me into look for cheap wheelchairs for when I have to leave the house in this condition. Well now its just ripping itself apart for no reason. My mom discouraged the wheel chair idea, but if this is going to happen every winter I need something else to help!
Oh, right, and my pharmacy is out of cyclosporine anyway so I have to wake up early and go to this other place that magically conjures up whatever medication exists. Its more expensive, but probably because they have hired a wizard.
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